Please remember to cheer yourself on when you want to show up. Remember the dark times and what you went through. Use the same energy that got you through those times for protecting you forever. Remember we want you to fold and break. It makes things easier for me to stomp my way through without you there. I am not hurt if you think you do not deserve this stuff. I will not fight you if you give up thinking this is all a waste of time. I have enough trouble trying to be my own cheerleader without worrying about all of this. You could end up riding solo, but you were prepared for one or hundreds of people coming behind you. Did you think you knew best and feel thrown out on your butt? Yea that will rightly shut us up and make us take notes on what can hit us. That woke me up and it was 4pm. Trust small and slow and then keep extending it. If we move to fast, we will scare the prey and let them know we are headed their way. We could be watching because we are fascinated to see you. Maybe we just want to say hello or hear your voice. We could be plotting in the background, but you will never know. You will feel loved when you finally put yourself first instead of last. You will be enough when you realize you are whole on your own. You do not have to settle for anything except for your own personal lottery ticket. Remember I do not want the crap that you do, but I will gladly make a list of my own crap. I do not want to be you because I do not how to do that. I do not want to follow in your footsteps because that just seems off to me. I will respect, value and feel loyalty towards you, but you cannot buy everything from me. This show will never be sold out because we want as many people as possible for this cruise. Not trying to make things spin in our direction but enjoying the moments that happen for us still. Remember that you can always try to break a pattern if you feel willing. Sometimes we need to see someone else do something so that we know it is safe. What if you want to be doing something nobody has ever done? The bravery you show will never go unnoticed if you are not doing something harmful. The best thing we can do some days is go back to sleep. Other days it is all about finding every minute to be productive. If I am not busy, I will feel crazy or feel even more overwhelmed. I am used to a certain pace of things, and this is killing the mood. Remember if you only follow what people think or make of you then why are you still here? Shouldn’t you have been put out on trash day?
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