I like learning new things about myself. You never know what you may like or suddenly get into. Our interests change all the time as we change, so it is always important to keep your heart happy. Remembering yourself when you were a kid as an adult is a great a feeling. We are not kids, but I still enjoy feeling nostalgic from time to time. Remembering the books I wanted desperately that now I could buy. Wondering about cooking a satisfying meal. Enjoying what you create can build confidence whether it is writing something or cooking something. Even if you are not the best now you can learn and improve on the skill. Within time, you would be fine. If you do not trust yourself, you will never act and wonder what you could do. The best reminder is to remember nobody is watching you and even if they are they want a good show. Are you comfortable feeling embarrassed or will you hide when it happens to you? I like hiding, but there is nothing to fear. I feared things for too long that were not good for me and did not help me. While, I have had my set of growing pains like everyone to do. You go through your trial and error and see what comes out. You should not yell at the teacher, but what if yelling at the teacher is working for you (it will not). I think you can relax knowing you have your own back. Remember the saying that being alone does not mean you are lonely. It never has to be. You need to be available to enjoy yourself, but it does not necessarily mean you have to be around someone all the time. Others get a high from being around people. They get a boost, and it makes them feel good. When something makes you feel good you will want to do it more often. Two quite distinctive styles of living, but both are common. I have been getting much better at mastering my anger. I recognize and call it out now, but once it is out in the open, I do not have any need to react. The balloon has popped, and we move on. Even with time the pain goes away, and you feel so much better. The trauma may be lingering in the back, but I do not need to see it right there. I know you are their trauma because I am looking at you right now. Hoping the more we recognize them and accept them, the smaller the impact they can have. Things can get better as we continue to grow, and I just like learning more about different subjects. Feel like I was a computer in a former life. Giving up control and giving up anger has lifted burdens and made spirits go up. Taking a deep breath and remembering you just have right now and how do you feel right now? If you are feeling good, you are doing better than most I would think. Keep remembering what you want from life and then see what happens. Life moves an unlimited number of ways, and it works for you.
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