The weather is changing and getting colder, so are you following with it and becoming colder as a person? Are you keeping your guard up because we can never end up hurt or embarrassed again? I like your style if you are. I want to and still do avoid as many of these moments as I can. The bottom line is facing these things are not a matter of life and death even though we give them power to be. The older you get the less you care about it as your social structure will usually get smaller. Families and individual goals can get in the way and people drift apart but remember that does not necessarily mean the love and respect that you have for them drifts apart. Our memories and how we remember feeling around the person would have much to do with whether we stay in touch or not, but the respect can still be there. We typically look to Google or a common source when looking into something. We sometimes end up getting a different approach from someone you would never expect, and it can help make a difference for you. Have you ever had someone explain their situation and think that you know exactly how the person felt? You then can bond and make whatever connection you are seeking grow deeper. If I am uncomfortable, I would just let the person know, wade in the shallow end as I build up confidence, try to go in the deep end and spice things up with more personal things. A multi-layered approach to me would work out well. The bottom line is without trust you will never get extremely far. Trust can be harder to find nowadays, but we hold on looking to find it and then spill our guts out. The desire that we can find it is important and when we find it, we can try to hold on to it or give it a chance to grow. There are many ways to grow your career, you can always try again with people (even if it seems scary), we can develop our interests or find new ones. I have found that even on a day that I am having, I am hoping that the sun is out. Not the sun that burns us into a red lobster, but the one that makes you feel comforted and gives you assurance things will be ok. There are so many ways to look at the world, and you have a great (underrated) selection of things to choose from. Again, you may think you do not the power to get out of a hole, but you have options. When you understand yourself, the sky is the limit and please share it if it brings peace to you and you feel engaged to share it with others. You may think you are the only person that likes something or feels a certain way, but you can reach out in your way and see what ends up happening.