When things seem tough, I must tell myself to relax and then I try to go through the feeling and why I am feeling a certain way. Things have been great but change still scares me at times. I will have to embrace it as everything changes at one point or another. Being able to know that change is good and that it will help me and not hurt me is the way I am going to go. Too many times I thought things may or may not hurt me, so I would be scared to decide. Now I am finally able to be strong enough to try to face the things that made me scared. I know to be strong means you can show weakness because the weakness will not break you. Embrace the weakness and focus on your strengths. This can be a good year, and it is time for me to show up. Riding the waves of life is tough but experience has made it that much better. I find life being about a variety of different experiences and seeing how we deal with each of them. It sucks when we know we can end up in the wrong place at the wrong time but what if we can also end up at the right place in the right time? I want to focus on building my foundation and keep exploring different things in the world. Why are people doing the things they do? Why are you and I doing the things we do? What is the best way to continue to get stronger and how do I motivate myself each day? Typing that sentence just made me think of when you work out exercising and these are just life exercises. When you do not exercise you can fall behind and being able to motivate and stay focused becomes a daily chore. It is rewarding like when you clean the bathroom, but it can be a real pain when you are starting it. Reading for me has been a pleasant surprise. I had not read many books the last decade or so but the last year I changed. Reading when I was a kid was one of my favorite things to do because it helps you not feel alone. Reading daily, I think has increased my knowledge, which will increase my happiness. I am also learning when you feel resistance with others, which is ok. Resistance does not mean failure. Resistance is telling you who does not need to be around you and is helping if you listen to it to make the right choice. I am a fighter always have been. I used to have a nickname “the instigator” for causing a ruckus. Now, I know that life is undefeated. Life is the ultimate heavyweight, and it is teaching my place in it. I am more appreciative of it now because I understand the loss and I can see the positives. Your instincts and intuition are there to protect you and help you. They are a compass for you, but will you learn to listen to it?