Spring Brings New Understanding

The world starts to look brighter when you stop taking yourself seriously. Everything is ok and everything will end up being ok. This is what I say to myself some days, and this is what is true about right now. The pain is receding, and the strength is returning. I want to build up energy and then continue my path again. What scares you the most in this world? For me it is being alone. I always hated sitting with my thoughts or being on my own. That was when your thoughts would pop up and you felt trapped with them. I would think terrible things and not want to deal with the problems I was facing. Now I understand as much as I want to, I cannot run away from my problems, and it is better to deal with them. Now I think about how to solve the issues instead of worrying about avoiding them. This has helped me see the problem I was causing for myself and now I am on a good track trying to deal with this. You must be able to see your flaws and that was a very scary thing to find. Noone likes to see what they are weak in or where they have made mistakes and examine them. It helped to be able to deal with that and overcoming that has made me feel better. I have had to build to acceptance because there is not really another choice. You must live with yourself, and you are not perfect, so you accept and move on with things. The good still will always outweigh the bad. What things have you had trouble dealing with? What would make those things go away? People do not like to face what makes them uncomfortable and so some will skip looking at themselves and just assume it is the other person. I want to be able to understand myself, so that I will be in the best position to help and save myself. When I can deal with being alone then I will no longer be lonely and feel healed. I know what I need to do to be able to succeed but it is different when you must go through it. I want to have a new energy towards life and be ready for anything to happen. When I realize what I have overcome it makes me happy to know where I am today. Even the biggest failures I might have thought I have had turned into successes. The scary things are not so scary after you have looked and felt them. The uncomfortable feeling goes away and you feel satisfied. Doing the things you love is what will make you feel whole. If we spent and focused our time on the things we love and want to know more about life and forget about the other stuff that goes with it. I think that if people do what they are passionate about the money would come because the effort would be there. I do not think you have to go searching for the money, but you must go searching for what you want. When you focus on what you want the money can then come to you.