When you just want peace, but the drama wants to come back. Peace will win in the end because my thoughts will overrule the drama. I need to know what battles I am ready for and which ones I should let go. When I can feel emotionally drained when dealing with others, but they always leave me with something to think about. I think its time for a trip to the ocean or lake of your choosing. We earned it with the challenging work and now is the time for celebration. As the weather gets colder, the thoughts of running for the beach increase. I love waking up on the beach or hearing the ocean as the sun sets. Going kayaking on the water in the hot sun would feel like a dream come true. If you will be out in the sun, you might as well have water to hide in. Where would I like to be right now? Thinking of the most peaceful place of which I can think. Feeling the wind as I close my eyes and take a relaxing breath. Why is it when we want something the most it feels like we must be very patient for it to come? That the thing we want the most comes after we have almost given up looking for it. When we lose the hope that is when the gift comes calling and surprises you. I am a person that likes surprises, and it can always make you feel appreciated when that happens for you. It is always nice as well to give the surprise as that can help continue a connection. What is it they we fear? Failing and having the people that care about us laugh and judge us? Never fear being yourself. Being yourself is being free. Keep building that inner world brick by brick. I have found that the negative thoughts can come in at any time, which makes it good to be prepared. When the anger and drama come just make sure to brush it off your shoulder. What am I scared of failing at? I fear ending up alone. That seems like a common fear. What I understand about that now is what many others have stated before. It is not the worst thing being alone, but the worst thing is being around the wrong people. You can always make the right choice and have the happy life. Remember when you have never attacked anyone and they attack you, they are the weaker one. Intimidation can be scary, but with battles you must always weigh if it is worth it to fight back. It can be worth it to fight back and show you are strong. It can also be dangerous when you get in over your head, and realize you are not the biggest badass in the building. That is always a humbling experience when you think you will dominate and instead you lose. Understanding there are all types of people with all kinds of separate ways of thinking out there is a blessing and a curse. It is great when we can get as many ideas as possible, but bad when we are unable to make a final decision.