I tend to feel drained after being around other people. I know I get that way and am not able to be around them for a very long time. I strongly prefer 1-on-1 conversations where you can get to know someone better. It is nice to be able to appreciate this because there was a time when I thought this was not a good way to live. Then I learned to me there is no actual good way to live. There is just a bunch of variety to look at. I like everything about people except being around a lot of them. Understanding what we each want and seeing how we each approach life is what I am curious about. I have seen and experienced things that I will never be able to unsee, and I am sure many others feel the same way. It is tough when you can sense and see that you do not fit in. You look over and want to a smile and then you see the big frown face mood killer. Just keep on smiling back until you see a smile that is worth looking at. Just keep enjoying what you like and put out what you want to see. When you are working within yourself good things can happen. You must keep that spirit even when the clouds are dark, which feels to me like going to the gym for my brain. I do not enjoy trying to motivate myself on the tough days, but that is the only way this will work. You must be able to be on top of things 365 days of the year. Sometimes things can move at a snail’s pace and at other times you could be wishing life would slow down for you to catch up. One important thing to have been no regrets. When you have regrets, they can take away the power of the future. You look at what you missed out on and not the fun that you had. You are putting the bad things before the good things. We will experience both good and bad things, but it is important to always put the good thing first. By human nature the bad things will take over your brain, so why not counter that with the good things first. At least then you have a chance to remember some good things that happened. How to let go of the past and the stuff that is no longer good for me. This is a tough one to figure out, but an important one. When things are no longer working, it is ok to accept this. When things feel off and you do not want to do something it is ok to accept this. If you feel let down by someone, it is ok to accept this. Bruises come with the laughter, but bruises never break you and laughing is one of the best things you can do. Take it easy on yourself and remember that things are going your way even if you do not see it. There is a method to the madness of life.
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