Everyone wants the cool and shiny toy. Does anyone want the one that sticks out or they are not sure how to use it? Every toy is always right for someone out there and if people do not want it, they do not have to buy it. I know I always worried about what I was doing and the choices I was making. Now I could care less because the approval that I was seeking in my situations did not actually matter. It took me years to figure out that little bit of information, but I understand that finding that out has felt like a weight lifted in ways. I used to think and believe like other people that something may be wrong with me. Now I understand that nothing was ever wrong with me. It was that I have trouble understanding and relating to others socially. That had nothing to do with me being a terrible person or someone not worthy. So now I give the love to myself I know I deserve and try each day to get along better. Being more understanding for me will lead me to more freedom which is what I want. Likely there is nothing with you and you may just be confused, lost, scared, like everyone else can be at times. The thing is nobody wants to admit it, but it is always there beneath the surface, and I see it. The important thing is to push past that feeling and still go on. That is when you feel braver and stronger and will something good inside about yourself. Think about the way people have acted towards you today and try to think why they did what they did. What motivations did they have? What did they need to accomplish? Try to see what you wanted and what they wanted and hopefully everything lines up for you. If someone was awful, then try to understand what made them that way and try to forgive them. Forgiving is always for you and has nothing to do about them. You can attract good things the more resilient you become. You become more resilient by understanding and being able to maneuver yourself out of tricky situations. Think about all the people you interact with in a day and think about how many of them you will ever even see again? Now I admit it is ok to be embarrassed in public. I am sure I have some lingering issue with that but thinking about it know it does not seem so bad. How would you maneuver yourself through being embarrassed? What about having a difficult conversation with someone or confronting them about something? Being able to build up these skills over time can help you attract good things because you have experienced them. You have gone through lessons and seen what works and what does not work. We made our mistakes, but we are still standing. This is when I would think to not take myself so seriously in life. I made mistakes but I am still here. That is because the mistakes helped shape who I am and made me able to attract good things in my life.
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