Remember it is ok if someone else is jealous of what you have, or they feel they deserve it more than you do. That is not a personal issue with you. It must deal with the insecurity they may feel about themselves. You would think if someone does something nasty, they would just instead tell you that they are hurting. Noone ever can appear weak though, because the weak shall feel hurt by manipulative people. I know about this not because I am weak. People may assess you to see if you are weak. You will know if you fail the test and do not worry life is nice enough to let you go through the lesson again until you do it right. No, you are not alone with your thinking or what is happening to you. I understand and have been there from people trying to make you think you are crazy to people getting angry at you or taking their frustrations out on you. That is one of the things that keeps me going, though. I have been through confrontations and incidents. Even though I do not enjoy going through them, I know that I am able to get past them. I now know not to let it get me down and that the quicker we accept things that happen the faster we can move on from them. Expectations I am finding again you cannot have. Expectations just have been a dream killer, if they do not match up with what you are expecting. I am still trying to get through and understand that detaching is the way to get past it, no matter how I feel. Feeling like if you make one unwise decision everything will go away. Is that in true? In my experience it depends on what you were expecting or wanting to happen. Everyone’s reality will be a bit different, so not one person can really agree on what really is happening. That is why you have no choice but to trust and follow your own instinct. Each of us sees things differently so each thing we go through can have a different impact on each of us. You will have to learn to trust yourself because what happens if there becomes nobody around you that you feel you can trust. That would be the scariest feeling and one not many people will ever go through you would think. Some of the best things we can do is understand our emotions, so they do not end up hurting us. Remember you must trust yourself, because if you are not your own friend who will save you if you get into trouble? It is a dark road ahead if you are not on your own side. That would be my first step if I were feeling that way now to try and get rid of it. The good is what we are hopefully after. Healing can take a long time and sometimes feel like it may never happen. But you will look back one day and see the progress you are making.
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