It is sad when I feel I put so much effort into something, and it is not working out. You must decide your breaking point and what you can do when things go that way. Remember sometimes a no leads us to the yes. Remember that you can honor yourself and if you feel it is time wrap it up. What if you want to be a doctor, but that leads you into something else that you desire just much? You can always turn the dust you have into gold. If you have support, then this is the time to use it and appreciate it. Being able to share your troubles with others and having them understand will make you feel better and make you feel heard. At some point feeling heard can be everything that matters. Tough times are meant to change us into warriors or see if we become wimps. It is sharpening of our edges and changing something or getting rid of something we no longer need. There is always that fight to hold on to what we know, but sometimes what we know is no longer good for us. Sometimes we must take the leap and see where we land. The fear can drive you crazy but can end up totally misguided or not needed. Now I like to worry when there is something to worry about. I used to feel anxious and be worried all the time about whatever was coming next. From giving speeches to having to meet new people the brain would turn on and the worrying did not stop. That can be exhausting for your brain and body and not good for yourself. Moreover, I had to have life teach me to relax. I had to learn to relax and shut the brain button off. I always had my brain turned on and it become overloaded and overworked, because it needed a break. However, I give it a break now and it comes back better than ever, and the worrying has dropped steadily. If you know you can make it that is part of the battle to success. Doubt is the bad and confidence becomes the good. As we make our changes and moves both doubt and confidence will start to go up and down. Hopefully over time we maintain the confidence we need. Do not ever underestimate an action you are taking for yourself. If you believe it will help you and it is something that is important to you that is all that we need. Remember you can make every right decision for yourself and feel it in your bones. Someone may still boo you along the way and make sure you know what they think. If you are lucky, they will let you know what they admire about you and what you are doing to affect others. It is important that we have a foundation of support, but it is also important that we keep an independent identity as well. We can easily feel lost in the fascination of others, but we must stay grounded when this happens.