My heart is in the right place even if I am not yet. It is ok for things to take time but please keep going at it and always have hope things can turn for you in a moment. The best things I have found were things I were not expecting but ended up happening out of nowhere. I am getting comfortable being with myself and enjoying my own company. It is ok to have a fun time by yourself. It is ok to enjoy your own company. We worry and get scared when we are alone. There is no worry when we are alone, and we can become just as strong alone. We do crave to feel accepted by others around us. I have felt more comfortable alone than around others because I know I can trust and rely on myself. The biggest issues I have around others is I feel I cannot trust them at times, or they may let me down. If I am alone, I do not have to worry about that because I am the one in control. When I rely on others I am not in control and then all bets are off. I would rather know what I was getting into and trust myself. Relying on others for things I need is too much of a burden and not worth the risk. Being more playful about life and trying not to start at a tense level is where I am. I have been known to be unapproachable and to be intense with others. There is only one way to go and that is the intense way. I liked it when things stay the same because I know what I am getting without surprises. People want the surprises, thrills, roller coaster type of life. I guess knowing what comes next can be boring and there is no challenge to it. Maybe when we are surprised, we will be more grateful with things. When do things get better for us? When we realize that things can already be and are good now. We need to just improve what we are doing now, and we will be there. The things that get my excited are things I would never even think about sometimes. Learning a new skill or understanding more about yourself. What do you desire for yourself? Everyone is out here doing a million things. I see people working multiple jobs and working themselves to the bone and is it worth it? They feel they have no choice in this because they are doing it to be able to survive. Then you have people who are not even happy with their jobs or doing what they love and feel stuck in life. I know that I need a change but what change is still unknown. That part is exciting and not scary to me because I want it. I will not fight something that I want. You can enjoy the things that you want and not feel guilty or ashamed about it. Create the love you want, and you will never be without it.