The dream is here and time to make sense of it. When you want to fit in a box life will hand that on over to you and state “Next! You can break the box into who you are, you can stay in the box shielded from danger and stay on course, or you can try to hide yourself in the box. For this the choice is yours, but the consequence is you must live with the decision that you make. Now we can always reinvent ourselves in new ways and come out stronger on the other side. That could be harder to do. How do we know the habits we have our bad? I am a bad one with this. I have unhealthy habits, just like everyone else. I can get stubborn and refuse to want to change. It takes me time to reflect on the change and whether I have the energy to go through with it. The reflection period is an asset for me and something I like. It gives me the time to analyze my version of what went down and what I could have changed to do better. If it becomes a pattern (remember we watch for patterns) that is usually a sign for me to change it when it is bad. Patience is what will set me free. Something inside me is just telling me this and having to wait, not manipulate, just sit peacefully is driving me nuts. I will play the long game and try to see if it works out. I do not want to take anything for granted, because I think you can find meaning in most things. Even looking at a toy I saw from the 1980s brought up memories to be grateful for. If you think hard enough you can usually find something that stands out. Trying to stay balanced with my emotions, trying to stay patient with my brain, trying to let my heart guide the way. This feels like I am going in different directions, and it could be too much. The journey and the prize are worth it because of the discovery of yourself. Whether you are ten or fifty-five if you spend enough time focused on understanding yourself you will see how you have developed. It is when we do not like what we have turned into the monster shows up and ruins our fun. Your head is there to protect you, but it can also distract you. We learn to deal with what our body is telling us in separate ways and go from there. Having a nice dinner that hits the spot sounds great to my heart tonight. See I already have an idea that my heart is off to a good start and will be right. Trusting yourself has been a battle. It can feel like a game of tug of war until I want to fall asleep from going back and forth. Now that tug of war game has disappeared because I understand myself. I understand I make mistakes, and I understand I can make the right choices for me.