Do you hear the hushed whispers and notice the glazed over looks shooting at you? Can you feel the tension and just want it to disappear? These silly games that end up happening and for control. Control over trying to get something you may not even get by trying to force it into your lap. You can try and see if that works for you, but again I will not be on that train. I will be sitting with my drink in the sun hoping for a moment that will bring joy. It is the uncertainty that can drive you crazy, but the hope that you can hold on will always be there. When do you feel the anxiety, you just need to know is it there with you? Is it really on your back making you crawl into a ball and not face the next moments? Does it make you think that terrible things will happen or make you afraid they will? Remember you must accept and acknowledge what you are feeling. You must be a detective and figure why it is bothering you, so that you can remove it. When does it show up? When were the worst times you experienced it? What you were you doing during it? There are ways to figure out the answers, and you can figure them out. Who is your role model? Why do you look up to them and bring the qualities that you desire and look up to out into the world in your way. Things do not have to be difficult just because somebody keeps saying it is. Things can be whatever you wish for when you believe and find your focus. I do my best after reflection because you spend time reflecting on what is troubling you and what you want to change. Then you realize at a certain point that you have spent enough time with that and can move your focus somewhere else. Do not feel crippled by the things that come up in life. Show you are more than that by being ok with whether the tidal wave comes or it never appears. The things that we end up fearing that are not worth troubling us for five seconds. The things we feel anxious and want to change about ourselves, but others find it our most desirable qualities. You do want to stand out because that is what separates you from others. That is something nobody can take away and something for you to be proud of. It can feel like you are walking on eggshells, but that is not realistic. I would want space from that and must create it. Let the people think whatever fantasies they want and you live the life you want. Everybody wins they get their delightful story, and you get your wishes from the genie. When times are dark you need the lighter side and when things are light you need the appreciative side. You never know what could be waiting for you and it could be even better than anything you could have imagined.