Are you scared of the obstacles you feel you are facing in life? There is nothing new with that fear, but you can combat it away with force. Remember to know you are in control of certain things and you are not in control of certain things. Try your best to learn which things you feel you can control and which things you cannot control. When you have an awareness of what you can and cannot control then you can strictly focus on the things you can control. The rest there is no point in worrying about because it will happen anyway in one way or another. Do your best and focus on the things you can control, and you will be ok. Fear is a nasty little devil, but we always have the choice to fight it. I know all about being afraid and facing things we do not want to face. You cannot run and hide forever or maybe you can if you are highly skilled. I cannot live with myself without being myself now. I cannot fake it until I make it and its time to stop hiding. We like to do things to protect ourselves sometimes that are not necessary. The feeling of being embarrassed or exposed to the world is too strong to look at. We do not like when the world feels focused on us in the wrong way and sometimes, we will go to incredible lengths to make sure nobody knows us, so we our feelings do not feel hurt. Are we not hurting ourselves by reacting this way? We can stay away from the bad, but we can still love the good. The bad does not need to and should not rob us of the good. We tend to dwell on the bad and that is all on which I could focus. Letting go and knowing that good things have happened to and that I am prepared either way gave an inner confidence that became powerful for me. Figuring out things has been long, tough, but rewarding so far for me. I liked when the best part of waking up was Folgers in my cup, but those days have been over for a long time. Now is the time to get things in order, enjoy what you can and try your best to learn from what hurts you. The lessons always hurt, but you are stronger than any lesson. Do not get crazy with a stranger because you never know who you are dealing with. You never know what someone is going through in their life, what their breaking point is, etc. It can be a slippery slope which is why I like to read a room before trying to make a big splash. I envy the people that can go in and just start talking like they have known someone for years, but not me. What I like is the calmness sometimes that can bother people. I like to be at peace when I hear the stillness sometimes. The summer nights are coming and will be great for some nice walks.