A Novel of Ideas

Why do you not have all the answers? Why are you refusing to help me? These are some of the tough things that can happen if someone puts pressure on you. It can feel like this sometimes and it is not good for either person. You want to help people, but you do not need their guilt trip to get it done. They can ask and if you want to do it go ahead and do it. Saying no is always ok even when anyone makes you feel otherwise. To me, there is never a justifiable reason to not say no. You are free to say it whenever you want. If you want to help, you can offer that as well. The problem is when you have a policy to always say yes is people will never stop using it against you. You must be careful what you are willing to do and speak. People will always be testing you like you are playing Battleship. You never know who you may encounter these days, so best be careful to me. Certain people want to keep their status or the good perception they are providing others at any cost necessary. I do not care as much about this anymore, because I have felt shame before and taken it out on myself. I have felt embarrassed at moments and dread having to remember them. Now it is ok because things happen. You can remember why you did something and understand that it happens. It felt tough when I had the sting of shame, but after it bothered me less and less. I have gotten poked like a bear by others to see what I was able to take. This is normal and standard, and it is just to see what kind of reactions you will give. People do not like surprises I have found in behaviour. Some people want to learn and read you like you are a novel. People can think that they know you, read you, understand you but you must be the judge in that and not them. I have had others try to copy me and you can copy me please go ahead. We need people that want to provide ideas, want to try to solve problems and not cause them. You think that you are only one person out of billions, but we all have enormous power. An issue is someone always wants to be the biggest person in the room and ego can get in the way. We all want to be the person hitting the Home Run to win the game at the end of each day. We all want to be the athlete that is interviewed and receive the endorsements. The thing is you must be able to take accountability and responsibility as well. We only want our cake and eat it. I want the PlayStation 5, without paying for it. We can have the riches, friends, relationships that we want, but everything has a price. The losses must come with the winning. The work at least for most must come with the success. It is the focus of where we should be working ourselves that I think needs adjusting.