Do you want to be a bit scary, carry an edge to you, trying to intimidate others? Feel free to bring an edge out if we do not build our personal walls too high. I have been known to build my walls too high. I want to make sure that nobody can see the inside of my self. I need to hide it away from the rest of the world to protect myself. Nobody can make me open it after the experiences I feel like I have had. Does this sound like anybody at all? I build my walls too high because I let the wrong people inside them before and we do not repeat mistakes in this lifetime. I will block out the sun before I let someone get closer. It is how it feels it must be. We must feel safe to be able to show parts of ourselves and feeling safe to me can feel like a near impossible task. Others can wonder why I do not rely on them or seek support, but it is because I must travel alone and be strong enough to make it through. It is the only way to make through the treacherous travels of this life. Feeling like we would rather run away than face whatever trauma, demon, belief, continues to hold us back from the finish line. We know we cannot make the same mistake twice or face the consequences of our actions. We know we must be strong enough to make it through any challenge that comes our way. The path feels written for a solo mission, which may or may not be difficult. The way to go seems scary and you never know what creeps up behind you next to scare you. The peace must come to take me to a place of a feeling safe. Peace is what I seek, and peace is what I shall have. The ways to get there are cloudier, but some way I will make it through the unknown. Take a free trip knowing that victory is awaiting when I find clarity in my situations. Not leaping would make me sick to my stomach, but building walls are the key to my heart. I did not seek out and ask for this to happen, but I have found it is the only way for survival. Life will come in waves, and you think tomorrow your guard will slip and the walls will come down, but not when you know what happens when the walls are down. When you are scared to the point of not being able to open your eyes to see what is out there. This is all in my head or this is entirely my reality, but one thing is for sure it is what I have felt at one time or another. Life never takes days off and neither can we. It is the times we take off or are not looking when we become the most vulnerable to a mistake. You can have walls fifty feet high or have no walls at all, but we each experience a different reality.