Please do not let any personal issues you are having eat you alive. You are braver and stronger than that and when you do not know what to do take a minute scan the situation and move forward. When we feel doubt or we are not sure how to move forward just relax and think about your options for a minute. Nobody is saying you must decide right this second what exactly you must do. Compose yourself and then think about the questions you need the answers for and answer them. Let the haters watch in the background as they can see you are enjoying your time, and you do not need their approval or acceptance to make any move for yourself. They also cannot block you from your desired goals, so if you choose to forgive and forget them it can help free you. Please make sure to forgive as I have had had problems with this and continue to have problems with this. It can be hard to do this, but apparently when we hold on all that nasty rage and hurt that we had tied to the situation or person will linger inside you like a sewer of your soul. It will certainly not make things easier to deal with it lying around so we must forgive. Forgiveness is for us and not for the other person. Forgiveness gives an honest assessment of what happened, and you then forgive whatever actions took place and wish them the best with their life. You do not have to deal with them, but you also do not need to continue to wish them pain. By forgiving them you let the sewer free from your body, and you open the space that was there with all the hate and now it can end up replaced with something more helpful for yourself. Remember if you try to take the route of forcing others to do what you want them to do then you must deal with the consequences or backlash if things go wrong. When you try to pass through something unnecessarily you can find yourself running into issues. These issues should go under ones you created because of the fact your choices led to them happening. The power in all of us shines and it can make me blind some days because the power people have. When you start glowing it can make you noticed and noticed because of something that resides within you that people can identify with. Something feels noticed the sensor and you know things will be different. The best advice I can think of is think in a reasonable way to you what is it you want and get it. If you tell me why you cannot you are not listening to what needs to be taking place. Bring your struggle if you are struggling to the surface, so that it can help others and show others that it exists. Point out things that are happening and try to discover how to make them happen.