This Monster Is Alive!

We get to choose as we get older what we use to shape ourselves. When we are younger our parents influences and the people we are around the most tends to shape us. When we get older, we have more control over the people we allow in that space. We can have people that challenge us, bond with us, treat us with respect etc. You will always rub off the people that are around you, so hopefully you choose supportive ones and ones where each of you can build each other up. It is better when things feel balanced because I would think it would be a more fulfilling relationship for each person when things feel balanced. When things are one-sided on person will eventually give up giving effort and the relationship will then fail. Things do not feel balanced, so it would be natural that they would fall apart. This is why it can be hard and easy to look for people to surround yourself with because you are looking for certain things. They might appear right in front of your face, or it might take a long time before you are able to see the qualities you would want in someone. Where do we go from here? We keep on living and learn along the way. Tough situations come up where things become powerless and then at the last minute the window gets cracked, and you can sneak through. You think you feel saved just in time before life was going to come crashing down. This sentiment for me would be one of the reasons why I continue to stay hopeful even when things look dark and cloudy. Your mood can change, but overall, you always come back to yourself. When you come back after a period of haziness your personality shows up and this is when you would get your boost in energy. The boost in energy that motivates me to want to create something is another benefit and thing to look forward to. You cannot go wrong creating something, because if it is not for anyone it will not go anywhere, but if it is important then it starts off having value. If you put your effort into something and it means something to your heart, then it already has value. The meaningful things, the things to help others, the desire of bringing new things into the world brings the excitement I look for. My worst enemy can be myself at times, so I just need to roam free and see where I land. Things will always change, and the mindsets will change as well. I look to bring in fresh ones for myself and think about what I would want to strive for. What I would think has value already in life. What is something you could get behind and think that this is important? The challenges can be laziness or relaxing too much, but that can just be recharging the batteries. When the gas tank is full you do not want to be anywhere near this monster!