It can be difficult to feel and read what is going on sometimes. After a bit I can see the whole picture but for some time I see only parts of what is going. When we can only see the parts that are going on it is logical to try and fill in the rest of the picture. This could be true and this could be false. It is up to us to hold the judgement until we get the final picture. I have seen and expected one thing and then ended up with the opposite. I have wanted to believe somebody is good for me and give them a shot only to find out they were a shot of poison to my stomach. Now I know the truth and now I can try to make peace and accept it even if it is something I do not want or like. When you feel drained from the situations around you it is time to step back and remember what you want. Boundaries can only go so far when they are ignored. You can say you can do this and that but what if somebody is ruthless and will do anything? What is it about people that we can all have everything we want but when someone sticks out, we must bring them back in. Even though we can both stick out we will bring each other back down instead of rising. It reminds me of the movie Toy Story when Woody tries to bring Buzz back down and avoid getting taken by Sid. That can be dramatic, but I know that it can feel like that. Opening can open doors for you, and it can make you feel better. When you are feeling you are doing the right things and the people come around you just need to continue. People may be trying to grab on to you in a freakish way or trying to get access into your life when you do not need them. They want to see if when you fall you make sure to cry, but you do not. You just look to them and wonder why you want to bring more hurt into this world? You want to put more poison into an atmosphere that can feel poisonous at times. We must let people do what they want to do, but that is sad to me. You can break the cycle and not stoop to someone else’s level and still feel like a winner. You do not have to lift weights to know you are strong. You do not have to scare things to know you can be scary. People always have more power than they give themselves credit for or think that they have. We have the power to decide what we want and throw away the key to the people that have negative thoughts towards us. Let the world take care of the rest and you remember to take care of yourselves. The poison is out there tonight, but you do not have to drink it. I am glad to not drink it and can rest being in a more peaceful state of mind.