What is scaring you so much you do not want the best for yourself? What kind of demons are you seeing and why are things looking bleak? Just get up and do the thing that scares you. I need to go through this as well. Get out of the comfort zone and feel uncomfortable. Try to understand that I do not have to handle anyone else’s pain but my own. It is time to try to get comfortable being uncomfortable. That is the key to it. You must sit in it until it no longer bothers you. You can avoid it if you want, but that never makes it go away. You may wish that people have compassion while you are going through this and find they are interested in seeing if you will succeed or fail. Just remember nobody likes feeling uncomfortable, which is why the word exists. We have all been uncomfortable. I spent years feeling uncomfortable, but that was being in my own skin that gave me the worry. Now there is nothing more beautiful than seeing who you can become and what you can manage. You can never give up because you never know when your break may come. Quitting is not an option, because this is for your best. Why do we get scared and feel afraid? Sometimes because we think that if we fail, how will others look at us? I can answer that for you. They will think you are a failure, but depending on the relationship will determine the sensitivity of it. That is why we do not care what others thing about us, because it will not help us. It gives us a high that makes us feel good, but it does nothing to add to our value that we have. Remember if you continue being true to you then everyone else is wrong. You can mark that down because nobody will tell you that. We do not like to be wrong, we do not like to feel embarrassed. If you want to stay on people’s good side, you will follow these or test them and see what happens. Remember you can run your experiment, but I am not responsible for what happens to you after. People may play games with you because that is what they know. If you are comfortable, please feel free and play them right back. If you are not comfortable doing that, I would advise to voice your opinion about it or just simply do not play the game. When others play games, they may want something from you but will not come right out and say it. Instead, we get to play toxic games that will hurt us if we continue to play them. You do not play the game for your own safety. People may get angry when you are not reacting the way they want you to or are not behaving the way they want you to now. When it comes down to it try to do what you want, because there may always be pressure on you to make a certain decision.