You can take the lead when you feel the courage for it. It is better in my mind to be in the lead because you can decide what goes on. Abusing your control to make others miserable and yourself richer is not what I am about. People have judged me for a fool for this notion and that is ok with me. I would rather show others what I have learned through my experience and let them know they are ok for who they are. Whether a million people say it or nobody says it you are ok. People that let you down when you get excited are not the ones for you. The people that let you know when you should not dream big or you are only getting your hopes up. I understand the need to protect yourself from disappointment but not trying for something that you really want is a bigger disappointment. You have the power to decide what you want, which is always great. Remember even if the job does not exist yet, did you ever think you could be the one to create it? If it is something you love, you can always try to make it happen. Even if you are at the bottom of the barrel, there is no place to go but up. You will get more scared when you feel you have something of value, and you think it can feel taken away from you. Whether this is a job, family, etc. you may start to feel pressure. That you must hold on tight to keep what you have. But try letting see if you do not end up happy. Say what is necessary and what you need to, so you do not regret it. Again, leave everything on the table, so that you have no regrets. It is always better to say everything, then to say nothing. I am talking about an important conversation you are having and not just a regular day. Things that have ended up haunting me have been when I have not said anything when I had a chance to. Depending on someone is something that scares me. What if they decide one day they want a change in the relationship and peace out? Then you feel left thinking, but I needed you to …. The ways you can heal yourself from the things around you are important and can end up bringing a smile to your face. You never know when a pain or trauma that you have starts to have a smaller impact on you. When you know you conquered a battle that was important to you. The little battles that you have build the momentum for you to continue. Building momentum is important for you. Building confidence is important for you. I am trying to stay true to myself right now, because that is something that I want to be important to me. People can learn my important things and try to copy them or use them against me. I am not in charge of anybody else’s life, but my own. Everybody has their choice to make, and we can just end up seeing what happens when they do.