It can be tough to understand that you are doing everything you can. It can be tough if people act nasty towards you, or you do not understand what is going on. Some people have a face that looks angry all the time. I know about this all too well and like it. I like scanning the surroundings because you never know what kind of people you may encounter. The truth is I have always liked to do a lot of things myself because relying on another person can be very scary. It is trauma based and wondering at some point what happened to let me down and one day I will find out. Until then I understand it can be sensitive and treat myself good if I am talking about the subject. The triggers that bring up the emotions can suck. Anything can be a trigger and when it hits you are down for the count. This stuff can take years and satisfaction off your life but understanding why they came up and how to move past it has been huge. I am still healing from the things that have happened but know that I am still standing which must be powerful. It is tough going through abuse and not really know what it is until you see it in the face. Others might call you crazy or dismiss your viewpoint, and that is okay. You cannot force people to see what they do not want to see. You can only hope that we do better each day. Getting weird looks or hostile undertones has been a theme for me for years and years. Everything seemed worse when I was younger but that was because I did not have the understanding I do now. I stick to myself now because reaching out to strangers can get yourself into big trouble if you are not careful. It is ok to be vulnerable AT THE RIGHT TIME. When you are alone and safe you can be vulnerable and when you happen to be in a place where you feel comfort and trust you can be vulnerable. Encountering the right people will bring you up, make you feel better, and be good for your soul. Encountering the wrong people can suck all the energy in the room out and make it feel colder than Antarctica. When we bring in good vibes, I have even seen people take it as disrespectful. It is essential to focus on our tasks and determine the methods by which they will be accomplished today. I can feel the stress in the air when I want to feel the love and comfort. When there is darkness all around you how do you know how to get out? By using your light to be able to shine your way through the world. That is always what we must do. If life has broken you, then it has won. If you stay unbroken, then you win. Giving up is always an option and people do it. Seeing how far you can climb is another way to go.