Things are starting to feel weird again and I do not know why. It is strange when issues just come up and you will have to deal with them. It must be an off day, but something just does not feel right. We should lean into what we feel, so I will have to just try to understand what I think is going on. I understand where I am in my life today and know what I need to do next. It feels like life is pushing me in a direction, for those that can understand that. This is why expectations and the way we want things to go will only lead to ruin. I am going to let everything go the way it should and give up control. Doesn’t that sound crazy? Who wants to give up control, especially in these days? I am willing to ride the wave until its conclusion, hoping for the best. This has been one of the strangest years I can remember but it will be memorable. Just things changing, giving up control, running into new obstacles, having to deal with old issues. 2024 feels to me like a decade wrapped up in one year. When I was little time went by so slow and now that I am older another year has gone by. Maybe if we can pause the clock of life for a few seconds we can finish everything we wanted too. It is hard to produce what is going on. If you continually think about terrible things, will dreadful things happen? The answer is likely because we have a way to trying to make our thoughts our reality when we think about something enough. That is one reason it is important to think good things for yourself and understand what you can do. You can dream big in life, but our mind can get in the way. It could think we are not lucky enough to get what we want; we have not worked hard enough for it so how can we deserve it. The mind reminds me of a jungle with all the thoughts being different branches or leaves sticking out. It can feel overwhelming, but it just needs understanding. I cannot think of any benefit of being negative, but you will still see it all the time. It is your choice on what you want to see and what you want to ignore. What is the best thing you have done so far this year? Understanding and forgiving myself for things that have happened. Knowing that things can get better and when you develop a more positive mindset then your world becomes more positive. I can feel all the anger and impatience in the people outside. To me, it feels like a huge ball of energy that can keep escalating. It is important to reflect on what you cannot change and to try to not take anything personal. The end of the year is always an exciting time to see the progress you made this year and how you want to start the next year.
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