Memories are fun to think about from time to time. If the memories are good, it can take you back to a place where you felt at peace. If the memories are bad, I hope that you look at what has happened and know it is not your fault. You can have a better today, and that is the part I would be happy about. Looking back and reflecting on my life at one point seemed traumatic, but now feels great. When I think over the issues, insecurities, fears, that had plagued me for so long. How I feel about these issues now feels like a breath of fresh air. Time and thought have helped me deal with my emotional baggage. The pain we feel can feel like too much, so we run away from it. When we lean in, focus, feel the pain it hurts bad. After a while, you can build up a tolerance to the pain like what happens with alcohol. The pain starts to fade, and you get the confidence that the pain did not break you. This is when you can build yourself back up and realize that the pain and issues you faced turned into strength. One day you can be upset and feeling like you wish the pain would stop, but then the next day you excited and move on to the next challenge. That is another thing that motivates me about life and makes me look forward to another day. I feel that many people do not like facing the pain or it may seem unimportant. I think that when you can clear your mind and work from the inside that your outside will work itself out too. This is something that I was able to notice from life experience. If we go through challenges each day and face issues, it becomes a part of us. When you want to grow as a person, your interests can change and the things you once loved are not as important anymore. It does not mean you are any better or worse, just that things are different. Nothing in life ever stays the same and no one can predict tomorrow. I always gravitated towards leaders that inspired you, challenged you, disagreed with your values or introduced you to new ones. If there is one thing, I want to get stronger in it would be patience. I am a patient person, but also expect things to happen immediately at the same time. I want to get a better balance and then I think it will improve my ability to problem-solve and see things more clearly. Everyone has a threshold to pain, and I believe that we can only take so much at a given time. If we pass that threshold, things can get scary and that is when we can relax ourselves and calm down. When you are all worked up like that, it can be harder to think, so it would be a clever idea to relax and calm down. It is Halloween tonight and I can hear the kids all excited in their costumes. This is a feeling I would love to have again, but I have the memories.