You have a way of making it out of the things you feel trapped in. You can feel like the walls are closing in but you can also try to get yourself out of it or minimize the damage. If you are trying to do things right and right the ship. When lost do not start shaking, looking tense, feeling a shutdown coming. Just breathe, take things slow. I need to breathe first, right? Ok, where am I next? I am inside this building trying to erase my mistake. If the issue cannot end up resolved, then we have some choices. We learn where it all went wrong and we feel thrown into our own snake pit (it feels overrated). We see what else we can try and choose the best available option. Rely on yourself and you will feel rewarded. We think we will end up ruined but sadly for me it was the other way. I cannot be Tom from New Jersey, so I will have to be myself and go the Mooman way, being told something and then finding out you are not that thing can hurt you depending on who told you and can relax you because it means you were following a lie. I do not drive, so that could be off-putting to others, I need to worry about getting where I want to go and not about soothing others. If I can complete what I want to do and not complain about the situation I am in, then who holds the power: me or the situation? If I say I cannot move forward because it is not fair that I do not drive, then I am letting the situation take control of me. One is something you never need to let happen and the other is learning how to be complete with your shame. You are a shameful animal & no dinner for you! Does that sound like something that would help things? No, but we still will excuse it at some point in the future. It is weird what we will allow and what we will not allow ourselves to see and face. There is an enormous difference when you make it a point to show up for yourself. Things will feel bad, but the hope never has to leave. Never underestimate that hopeful feeling if things are rough or not going your way. How can you change it and what do you need to have happen? If you should be impressing anyone it should be yourself. What do you want your future to look like? Do you want the same anxiety and guilty feelings you have right now? I do not and do not recommend them. The toxins that keep you sharp during the day are not usually fun. That tingle you feel in your body and how quiet the room is can make you want to break apart. Things will be ok because you have people out there that understand you even if you are end up told you are crazy. What do they know they follow this and this which would never speak to you.
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