Where do you go to for the questions you have? I would go to yourself and see what it has to say to at least give you a basis. It will let you know the answer and I would just start following that. Nobody is right and nobody could be wrong so use your best judgement to be able to figure things out. You can use others, but then that can bring in outside influences. If it is just, you then you can at least have one answer and then you could seek support and see what they say. Then you can measure and reflect with the information you have and decide. That is my type of trying to problem solve things that can come up. So, the answers can lie within us that means we just need to ask the questions, and we can get some kind of answer. Life does not need to feel deflating, and this has been uplifting. That gives a measure of hope and makes me understand what is going on. Things change rapidly, so never try to be shocked when they do. Things or people will pop up, and this may just be to see how you are doing. Comparing how you used to be to the person you are currently. Neither one being bad nor good, but simply different. There can be a familiarity or being able to not recognize the person you ended up being close to. Remember mistakes must feel allowed because they show where you need to get better. They are the foundation to build up. You have some idea of what your strengths are, but do you know your full roster? Something to consider because then you can build on your weak points and understand all your good points. That brings you balance and sadly balance is the key the sacred room. It should feel like the cherry on top of a sundae. What are you triggers and outbursts with anger? Making sure these are in check. You just need to take your body through a full list like you are the mechanic working on a car. Remember whatever you find is not bad or good but gives you information to help you moving forward. You can go enjoy whatever you like and hopefully rest up so you feel brand new. When you feel good it will show and hopefully you will see it in another’s eyes. You can end up doing things that will take you to the places you wanted to be. You may jus be focusing on what you desire and when life gives you the window you are taking it. People can have the good out there and there is nobody that is hogging it away from you. You just must see that you can make it. When you see some of the ways you are making a difference for yourself it will make you feel good. The fear is there to rob you of finding your path for what you want. Do you want to let fear win?